. never .

i was browsing thru my sist's tumblr photos collection lol. and i browse thru this.. yes it is true indeed. i still can't explain it but what is not meant to be yours will never be yours. you got to face it and move on with your life even tho it is hard for you to do that. oh well, that's life :)

. boys .

was watching the avengers movie again yesterday on imax and i fell asleep. first time it was cool but second time i don't know. oh well, i never a superhero fans so.. no wonder i fell asleep. but hummm thor is just so "cute" and so as hulk. :D those super heros are just like a little boys. 

i found this quote while i am stumbling on blogs and boring - ly waiting for my rendering

"The fool doth think he is wise, but the wise man knows himself to be a fool. - William Shakespeare" and i agreed. 

. just do it .

have you ever think that you are nothing but a loser? sometimes i do think that way. i lack of lots of stuff and skills. i do wish i am more creative and blah blah blah but then again, complains! rather than keep on complaining i should get back to what should be done. and i feel loved lately :) thanks!  

. emoticon .

okay, the not so positive post again. have you ever feel you sux? yes, i always feel that way. everyday and right at this moment i feel that too. how should i improve my attitude? my lifestyle? my silly old brain? my thinking? my expectation? my work? my creativity? my job? my career? my financial? my relationship with friends? my relationship with my sisters? my relationship with people around me? oh! what should i do? my head is buzzing right now. frankly speaking i am lost! and i try not to write something sad on my blog after i read this article on elle magazine website!

"Ask E. Jean: 25 Things Every Woman Should Know"

"8. Don’t read blogs written by unhappy, spiteful people. Bad blogs will mangle your mood. Instead, spend an hour a day with your Moleskine notebook, connecting deeply with your own spiteful thoughts. At least they’ll be original. And P.S.: Anyone can make history. Only a great woman can tweet it." oh my, i love what she wrote!

i paused for a while and chatting with friends on facebook and shared some stuff and then, talked some nonsense and craps and now i feel better :D and hey, pardon my rudeness but i am addicted to this emoticon guy hahaha i call it middle finger guy :P and i got few version on my phone!

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i've been sending middle finger guy to friends well, just the friends who i know can jokes ;p hahaha! especially v! we have the middle finger emoticon "fight" lol! and my sisters as well... hahahah! anw, finished talking craps!

. be awesome .

when i get sad, i stop being sad and be AWESOME (as always) instead!

wooo! i got this from Diglee's facebook. ah! how i miss the show. ahha barney stinson is the best!

. watch .

. i want to watch frida movie .

lately, i am inspired by frida's. her works, her stories, her pain.

btw blog, i watched hangover yesterday. humph... really not my kind of movie -.-" i didn't mean to say that i am innocent but the movie is just not for me. even the jokes i am blur. i think i prefer the first one tho. i was searching for something funny but i couldn't pick up adults joke. i ended up blank. lols! i wish they have mr. popper's penguin yesterday so i can watch.

if it was unfair for her. why it is not unfair for me?

i drank to drown my pain, but the damned pain learned how to swim, and now i am overwhelmed by this decent and good behavior. - frida kahlo

. no perfection .

blog, i just finished sex and the city again! :) i didn't go for hangover today as what i planned yesterday. all of sudden i just miss carrie bradshaw. yes, i went to grab the dvd earlier and i got a plus devil wears prada. both my fave. well, of course sex and the city more drama and ugh those fab dress. love!

i cried when i was in the part where mr. big couldn't get out from the car and just left carrie in her vivienne westwood gown. that was the worst. then, when she gets so angry and hit big with flowers. yes, i can see how painful it is.

louise from the movie said. we shouldn't give up on love. yes, i was so naive just like her before i fall deep in love. but no, i give it all up. i don't want to even care or imagine about love at least not for now. may be i just don't deserve love from a man. :) move forward i keep on telling myself. if i don't love myself, who will? this world ain't a fairy tale.

i accomplished my task today. shop for fruits, almond and milk. yay! am going to start my healthy morning :)

Don't be afraid of perfection, you can never reach it - Salvator Dali.

. accomplished .

. my close friend for months! .

. my beloved cockles .

. uuuuh the spicy basil beef! .

. i possess to a ugly walrus who ate all the baby oysters .

heya! i am in a super duper hyper period! ugh! i think this is because of the run. haha! if only everyday i am like this. when you have problems and when the world turning not as what you wanted. go and run! so, i have 3 things to share to-night.

1. yay! i finished the count of monte cristo!!! but i feel sad i have to parted with the count, abbe bussoni, lord wilmore. haha. they have been my best companion. my best friend for months! until the book cover looks like i owned it for ten years. haha. i closed the book with a big smile. ;D i love this book very much!

"no, indeed i calm," said morrel, giving his hand to the count, "my pulse does not beat slower or faster than usual. no, i feel i have reached the goal, and i will go no farther. you told me to wait and hope, do you know what you did, unfortunate adviser? i waited a month, or rather i suffered for a month! i did hope (man is a poor wretched creature), i did hope. what, i cannot tell something wonderful, an absurdity, a miracle of what nature, he alone can tell who has mingled with our reason that folly we can hope. yes, i did wait, yes, i did hope, count, and during this quarter of an hour we have been talking together, you have unconsciously wounded, tortured my heart, for every word you have uttered proved that there was no hope for me. ohm coundt, i shall sleep calmly, deliciously in the arms of death!"

there is neither happiness nor misery in the world, there is only the comparison of one state with another, nothing more. he who has felt the deepest grief is best able to experience supreme happiness.

"Darling," replied Valentine, "has not the count just told us that all human wisdom was contained in these two words, 'Wait and hope'?"

2. i run today! well, i ran the other day and the other other day. but today is different. i ran and i think nothing. i ran and i am not stopping. i ran and i feel joy. i ran and i am smiling. i ran like i used to be.

3. i ate cockles again!!! o.O" three weeks in a row i keep on eating cockles. this question poped out. my friend asked me "what will you became if you eat too much cockles" and i suddenly think and think and may be i should stop or may be just take a break for at least a month or so? and she said i remind her of walrus and carpenter from alice in the wonderland hahaha. guess what? i am the walrus! she said, because i am the one who ate poor baby oysters.

Insanity : doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. - Albert Einstein

. unseen .

what is going on with today? sigh. i really feel not that pumped up all of sudden. hold hold hold still there sisca, you are going to be okay. just ignore all of that and don't be too stress. cheer cheer cherrio!

btw i still am on reading the count of monte cristo. not once that i ever give a "sigh" and wanted to skip those pages. i enjoy all story. dumas is really genius :) i found this beautiful answer from maximilian to valentine when valentine asked him about what the count of monte cristo have done to him that he really loves him "I own that your question embarrasses me, Valentine, for I cannot say that the count has rendered me any ostensible service. Still, as I have already told you I have an instinctive affection for him, the source of which I cannot explain to you. Has the sun done anything for me? No; he warms me with his rays, and it is by his light that I see you—nothing more. Has such and such a perfume done anything for me? No; its odor charms one of my senses—that is all I can say when I am asked why I praise it. My friendship for him is as strange and unaccountable as his for me. A secret voice seems to whisper to me that there must be something more than chance in this unexpected reciprocity of friendship. In his most simple actions, as well as in his most secret thoughts, I find a relation to my own. You will perhaps smile at me when I tell you that, ever since I have known this man, I have involuntarily entertained the idea that all the good fortune which has befallen me originated from him. However, I have managed to live thirty years without this protection, you will say; but I will endeavor a little to illustrate my meaning. He invited me to dine with him on Saturday, which was a very natural thing for him to do. Well, what have I learned since? That your mother and M. de Villefort are both coming to this dinner. I shall meet them there, and who knows what future advantages may result from the interview? This may appear to you to be no unusual combination of circumstances; nevertheless, I perceive some hidden plot in the arrangement—something, in fact, more than is apparent on a casual view of the subject. I believe that this singular man, who appears to fathom the motives of every one, has purposely arranged for me to meet M. and Madame de Villefort, and sometimes, I confess, I have gone so far as to try to read in his eyes whether he was in possession of the secret of our love."

for me that words mean we might not see anything in physical form but somehow, you can just feel the love, respect, care and appreciation from someone. eventho they didn't show you or buy you a gift or two, but you will never know behind that they actually care for you. ugh i don't know how to explain but i just love that sentences. for me that is beautiful :) gday!

. can't wait til weekend .

fri think my stress will be lighter on this weekend as i finally ask a friend to guide me and help me to solve my prob. i'll be staying over at my friend's and get the work start this weekend! coz i've been lazing around and slowly recover from the past matter =) excited!

just checked my mail box letters this morning. i received a cert from singapore sport council =D for the standard chartered marathon last year. my first! eventho i am not so proud of myself. 10km for 1.50 hours? you kidding me! i need to start training for this coming next marathon =D need to be faster. for i have been slacking around coz my knee is still painful! =.=" go sisca go! i should learn from mr gump :p

"That day, for no particular reason, I decided to go for a little run. So I ran to the end of the road. And when I got there, I thought maybe I'd run to the end of town. And when I got there, I thought maybe I'd just run across Greenbow County. And I figured, since I run this far, maybe I'd just run across the great state of Alabama. And that's what I did. I ran clear across Alabama. For no particular reason I just kept on going. I ran clear to the ocean. And when I got there, I figured, since I'd gone this far, I might as well turn around, just keep on going. When I got to another ocean, I figured, since I'd gone this far, I might as well just turn back, keep right on going." - forrest gump

*dream of you =.=" seems real! and still praying for japan.

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." —Laozi

. a for artist .

"An artist is somebody who produces things that people don't need to have." - Andy Warhol

“Always keep your eyes open, never go to sleep in the car, or anything like that. Keep watching because whatever you see out the window can inspire you." Grace Coddington

after watching september issue, i slowly learn not to sleep in the bus! muah!

“Something maybe annoying you at the moment or you may think something is wrong with the world. These feelings could become an ingredient for creation. It means that even things-yet-to-have-form could possibly be designed.” REI KAWAKUBO

. break warn .

“She’ll only break your heart, it’s a fact. And even though I warn you, even though I guarantee you that the girl will only hurt you terribly, you’ll still pursue her. Ain’t love grand?” — Ms. Dinsmoor

.someone who appreciates you.

cup breaks, mirror breaks, glass breaks, all those handmade broken... not to be missed... heart breaks as well. but who cares, you'll just cry for a night or two or may be three and you'll soon get over it. am i not right? i stumbled upon a blog and i found a quote from audrey hepburn

i want to share with you, hey! someone out there who is dealing with this problem right now, don't worry! everything's gonna be okay. so what if your heart breaks? you can still heal that wound, well.. not as easy as you flick your finger.. or fix a clock that ran out of battery. but i am sure you will someday! so cheer up, grab your coat or bag, put on your flats or nice heels. slam your front door and hang out with your friends! you still have a long journey to deal with. just be happy and you'll soon be merry~ *wink

.it's a wonderful day.

no one is designed to be a failure and unhappy. thanks for the happiness you brought to my life. just as what the movie tell us about. we are all important to one and another.

magic kingdom

"To all that come to this happy place: welcome. Disneyland is your land. Here age relives fond memories of the past, and here youth may savor the challenge and promise of the future. Disneyland is dedicated to the ideals, the dreams, and the hard facts that have created America... with hope that it will be a source of joy and inspiration to all the world."

-Walt Disney, July 17, 1955-

Walt Disney World is a tribute to the philosophy and life of Walter Elias Disney... and to the talents, the dedication, and the loyalty of the entire Disney organization that made Walt Disney's dream come true. May Walt Disney World bring Joy and Inspiration and New Knowledge to all who come to this happy place... a Magic Kingdom where the young at heart of all ages can laugh and play and learn — together. -Dedicated this 25th day of October, 1971. Roy Oliver Disney-

zip a dee doo dah =D

happisis!

little reminders of love

zip a dee doo dah =D