. oh baby come to me .

for the second time i broke my fave muji cup again! so, i was thinking of sleeping on the couch. yeah, for some reason i feel like sleeping on the couch. weird,eh? guess i just miss those time too much :p and when i throw my blanket on the couch my cup dropped -.-" *heart ache. haiz!

i ran again yesterday! can't believe it either. i really can run alone :) in the neighborhood. yesterday's run was bit tiring. but i think i ran more than on monday. i get tired easily. i should run more. :D

btw here a catchy and fun song that i want to share. :) g'day, muah! but i don't need someone new :p

. miss .

. little did she know .

little did she know, she stop to cry and complain. she finally realized those are the tiring job ever. so, she is trying to leave it all behind little by little to joining the new adventure with the smile on her face. but yet she couldn't deny she still has him in her heart. g'day, folks!

*one of these days i would grow old and brave one of these days :)

. one unique person .

yesh! another post again. just learnt about leigh bowery. i must share. pardon me, if i only know him now. i think he is interesting and unique character. altho he kinda scares me too. :p ugh, i am kinda curious about him. may be when i got time. i will go library and search more about him. happi that i know little bit about him :)

. my heart da bump .

uh oh! i couldn't stop but keep playing this song. so catchy and so happy! i feel all better after i sing this song out loud. lols! i just don't care but sang it in the bathroom. i feel all happi again! i feel love again :)

my legs are aching -.-" after the long "rest" from run. i began running again yesterday. i guess hmm i just feel this month is really something for me. too much to handle. but i will hold hold hold my head up and face all of them. when i ran, i remember again how much i love running and be free :) it feels like i was blending in together with the wind, the dust and the world. haha! too drama. but yeah, eventho it wasn't a long run but it was a good run. i was sweating for real! and i couldn't even feel my pain on my knee (and now i feel the pain!) anw, i feel better. i am going to run run run again around my house area :)

now here is the song! i believe you guys is going to love this song as well.

Heart skips a beat my heart skips a beat

My heart is playing tricks on me
And it’s building bricks on me
I can’t break through
And I can’t face you

My world is turning slowly now
But it’s burning up somehow
I need some time
To know what’s right

‘Cause it’s only in the quiet that I feel some relief
I’m trying hard not to resist the joy
Don’t listen to me I’m being paranoid
I might try hard but it’s too hard to avoid

My heart skips a beat
My heart skips a beat
My heart is always first to know
And as the feeling grows
I can’t deny push those thoughts aside
My world is full of loveliness
But I focus on the stress

My heart says “Go” but my brain says “No”
And it’s only in the quiet that I hear myself breathe

I’m trying hard not to resist the joy
Don’t listen to me I’m being paranoid
I might try hard but it’s too hard to avoid

My heart skips a beat
My heart skips a beat
My heart skips a beat
My heart skips a beat

Oh I know this time ’cause it’s physical
My blood has stopped and I am breathless as well
But I need a minute to convince myself
‘Cause it’s only in the quiet that I know what to feel

. today i love .

. gareth pugh .

. rolling rolling .

When life tries to knock all the wind out of you
You've got to roll, roll, roll with the punches
If all life offers is black and blue
You've got to roll, roll, roll with the punches

g'day, muah!

. your name .

calm that wicked wind

to pick you up

and carry you off eastward

though I did release you

for to seek a warmer sky

should you be blown back

know that I will always run to greet you

still surprised to catch you

everytime

armed with this small butterfly net only

i will face the world alone

and never be lonely

so calm that wicked wind

and if you go you could be gone forever

i will play awhile here

by and by and by

armed with this small butterfly net only

i will face the world alone

and never be lonely

up and up you go

for to steal the secrets of the heavens

will you share them with me

my bright and brilliant spy?

should you be blown back

know that I will always run to greet you

still surprised to catch you

everytime

. the way i feel inside .

hiaaaa! love this song. for you button :)

. two .

uh la la~ i couldn't wait for lenka latest album =D love love love her! it brighten my day! =D

i love love her hair as well. couldn't wait til my hair grow long long long again! muah!

. silly old bear .

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source

. sorry .

somehow, i just realized that i am really a spoilt brat. an ill mannered little princess that wanted things to go on her way. i am sorry. if anyone feel that too about me. i have no idea.. until i read my chat box and the past mail (yeah i am too relax to have did something like this) nah, i just try to seek a clue or two. just want to know what happened back then that the realtionship wasn't going well. i owed an apology to someone that once important to me and still is. i realized all the thing that i have done and all the bad attitute that i performed. they weren't nice.... people said, thing happen for a reason. i think i got what it means. if this thing aren't happened. i won't grow up. i miss my close and best friend. i wish to see him again in quite a time. i am happy to know he is doing okay right now. i really miss him. i think it is really the time for me to put my self back in one piece.

be ye not fooled. whatever a man sows, that also shall he reap... >> he told me this when i feel down. you are my best friend ever :) love you.

. feverish .

not only people who can catch a fever! my phone shows up like this when i was about to say hellow

. imperfect me .

. hiccup .

you makes me hiccup every now and then

. stop counting .

it was hard. but slowly i am trying not to count the day. :)

*but still mu.

. kill the stress and weak devil .

the sunday sermon still humming inside my mind. little that i know today is wednesday. for button out there, if you read my blog... well, i don't think you are reading it for you are so busy with works. don't give up! this life is tough (look who is talking, you kidding me!). it might take a while may be more than a while we never know, but remember Daddy always has a good plan behind all of this. i learnt my lesson haha!

what i experience now and then are/were no compare with paul's thorn in the flesh. but i won't ask for that for it is too much for me. i couldn't handle it (am not that strong eventho i am big!):p. this reminds me of edmond dantes haha he suffer alot for he didn't do anything wrong. but he go through all of the bad and bad. such a gentleman. i don't know what i am talking about, just trying to write something that sounds encouraging. haha! i am a bad writer 0.O" . anyway i slowly understand part of what you told me. slowly, i'll grow up and be better. :) miss you!

. can't wait til weekend .

fri think my stress will be lighter on this weekend as i finally ask a friend to guide me and help me to solve my prob. i'll be staying over at my friend's and get the work start this weekend! coz i've been lazing around and slowly recover from the past matter =) excited!

just checked my mail box letters this morning. i received a cert from singapore sport council =D for the standard chartered marathon last year. my first! eventho i am not so proud of myself. 10km for 1.50 hours? you kidding me! i need to start training for this coming next marathon =D need to be faster. for i have been slacking around coz my knee is still painful! =.=" go sisca go! i should learn from mr gump :p

"That day, for no particular reason, I decided to go for a little run. So I ran to the end of the road. And when I got there, I thought maybe I'd run to the end of town. And when I got there, I thought maybe I'd just run across Greenbow County. And I figured, since I run this far, maybe I'd just run across the great state of Alabama. And that's what I did. I ran clear across Alabama. For no particular reason I just kept on going. I ran clear to the ocean. And when I got there, I figured, since I'd gone this far, I might as well turn around, just keep on going. When I got to another ocean, I figured, since I'd gone this far, I might as well just turn back, keep right on going." - forrest gump

*dream of you =.=" seems real! and still praying for japan.

. bells .

huaa!! i just got fb msg from my friend. she is going to married soon! like really soon this june. ugh, how i wish i can go back. huaaa lots of wedding bells ringing. jingling jingling. am so happy for them. :D

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." —Laozi

. it happens .

so, i still on reading the count of monte cristo and i am loving it. really! everytime i turned the page it gets more exciting. i am happy i bought the book and he introduced it to me. i love classics. i wonder what should i read after this. i'd like to read something thick again. something so exciting like the count of monte cristo.

everything that we like or love won't comes perfectly to us. humph.. i love to read the book on my way home on the bus. but recently, i feel sick whenever i try to read on the bus :(. force to read it tho but i really feel uneasy. -.-" i am forced to read on my ibook thru iphone while i was walking to the office or to lunch or to the bus stop. i wish the uneasiness quickly go away. for i feel so bored on the bus and i love to know what happened next. :)

*i wish you best, mu.

. cranes for japan .

let us keep on praying for japan and let us fold a thousand cranes for japan through this 1000 cranes

. stronger .

this month is really something for me. lots of things happening the good, the bad, the happy and the sad. for the first time i feel these are too much for me. i couldn't take it. but thanks to Daddy J. Who hear my prayers and give us a little conclusion. i will try my best to go through all of this. the time that you give, thank you.

this sunday service really hit me as always.

i love this verse

"That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:10

*i miss the day when you rush over to my office just to bring me flowers :)

. thanks .

i miss you,love! :) let's do it and strive better.

. wish the earth the best .

i am no expert but i care about this earth. ever since our raffles design major project, sustainability design. i am starting to be aware about global warming. every research that i did every clicked and scrolled frighten me. i start to say no to plastic bag, unless if i have no choice. lots of people still unaware about lots of scary things going to happen to this earth. i feel sad. even my own family they aren't aware about what's happening right now. try to explain tho... but still human love to be in their comfort zone. sigh!

somehow i feel happy when i watched extreme on tlc yesterday, knowing that there are actually quite lot of places starting to improve eco-energy. i feel amazed by what sequential biofuel did. i hope and i wish my own country indonesia, they'll do something about it. since we are rich of natural resources.

*still praying hard for japan.

. scent .

. they remind me of now-then and i still love them both. do you still remember the day i marked my territory with rose essentielle? that was fun :) .

. wisdom .

i tried hard not to think about anything so drama. yeah, dumas stole my attention away. but still i couldn't help but saying this.... i feel miserable. i wish last week never come still but what can i do? Daddy set everything's up. i think He has something for us. i am not sure what that is. but it must be good since it is from Daddy J. if it is about self changing, i think i learnt that. if it's about patience i slowly learn that as well. if it is about better future for us i'll wait.

Until the day when God shall deign to reveal the future to man, all human wisdom is summed up in these two words, 'Wait and Hope'. - Alexandre Dumas

. today i love .

. jose parla .

(source : anywhere)

. a for artist .

"An artist is somebody who produces things that people don't need to have." - Andy Warhol

. double it up .

. i love double exposure photograph(s) .

(source)

. yes, this is .

for what is happening in this world right now, yes! this is insane.

. in a piece .

time to get back in piece! i should stop all the drama that caused. even the rain will stops and the cloud will come. i shouldn't make a fool of myself but i shall live my life fully. this is not the end of the world. it's not even a tiny bit worst than what is happening now in japan. they suffer more that what i did today. i still have a chance to regain all one day if that day ever come. i am sure it will. not in a snap of a finger but it will one day. as long as i have a faith on it and strive to become a better person.

i still have tasks to finished and promises to be kept. i also need to sleep on my own today in my own room! afterall i am happisis. it is tough but i have to beat it and emerge stronger!

. rain still pouring .

. ship away .

last week was a disaster. if i could turn back time i would want to skipped those whole week of mine. i screwed up but i hope this will turn out for the better ship. but i still need my captain to be with me.

. never let me go .

i miss you, like you said i won't be happisis when you are not around.

. japan :( .

just heard about japan earthquake and tsunami.... that reminds me of what happened in aceh (near my little hometown) before. it was scary i hope everything is turning okay. it hit me more because my friend is in japan right now. i hope he is okay and nothing happen to him. try to text and watzapp him but no answer still o,O. in time like this, we just have to pray for japan.

. selfish little girl .

i fail to be a good girl-friend. it hurts me when someone i care so much feel unhappy because of me. i am a selfish little girl. i should change my behavior. i should be more considerate. i regret. please forgive me.

. monster inside me .

i managed to met up with sensei eventho i am unwell. sunday is a fun day. just found out she is getting married soon that is why she is moving to australia. i shall visit her one day! how lovely she is to tell me that "please do not forget i am a big fan of your design" huaaaa it made my day evntho i feel sick! i wish i could have dinner with her. but i feel weaker and weaker so i need to go back home and seeing a doctor. i had a fever and my tummy is painful. i don't like this. blame it to the mussel o.O" but the good thing is, i got a whole day to read the thick book that i've been reading. screw you, pain!

ssst... i spotted the colorful casio watch. so cute and i am so going to get it! they are cheap and uh came in lots of colors. couldn't decide which one should i get.

. mussel oh mussel .

i am happy and i am sad :(. i went for morning jog (i almost forget that i suppose to run with them and silly me when my alarm rang, i turned it off and wonder why it rang!) with christopher and winson... yeah! am so happy coz i haven't seen them for like a hundred year! we had chicken rice breakfast and followed by xbox at my place! how fun!!!! we laugh, we dance, we battle, we tired, we shout lols. really fun! and... in the afternoon, i went to meet up with sokkuan. yeah, my fave illustrator =D she gave me lots of advice again and we had a good time. eventho i feel bad that she need to rush back. yeah today is so much fun! not until i feel weak, i feel like going to faint and my tummy going berserk. i assumed that is caused by the seafood pasta that i ate yesterday. the mussel aren't fresh. i promise not to go back to that place anymore! you see... i am not a tiny size girl. i have a big body! looks healthy! always! but the thing is i am confuse why i always feel weak. hah! sick is sad.

i am so excited finally am going to meet up with rina kuma sensei.. she used to be my japanese sensei. she is adorable, funny and pretty! i miss her, really! i must meet up with her before she take off to australia :( and tomorrow is the only chance. i wish i am in the good and healthy condition tomorrow! Daddy please be good to me like You always be :)

. beautiful creature .

my sister show me lady gaga's latest music video born this way. i heard from the radio, the mv is gross and hmmm okay it is a tiny bit because of the slimy thing. you should watch fringe and dexter those are what we call gross. but this, i think it is nice and beautiful and yesh! remember her extra cheekbones.. its automatically reminds me of the alexander mcqueen's 2009 underwater creature show. ugh.... how we miss the genius designer!

. thin hair girl .

i have this problem since i was born. i have a fine thin straight oily hair! i have to wash it every morning. even if i washed, it will turn to oily flat hair in the afternoon. humph... hard to style the hair. my hair remain flat, straight, oily forever. always envy those people who has a thick not so oily hair. i feel like a dirty girl with dirty hair :( plus my current skin is not good anymore unlike before :(.

. love .

i love my muji sketchbook!

. i think i am .

. is this a joke? .

this is rather old news but i just read it on my friend's facebook here is the article and i wish that is only a rumor and a rumor only! disney without fairy tale. breaks my heart. everybody is allow to wishing and dreaming no matter how old you are. and disney makes me dream and wish since i was a little kid. it doesn't need to be real but it gives people hope to aim higher. i do not like this article not a bit. humph such articles i have read. today is disney few days ago is about galliano... heart broken.

. dear phone i miss you .

i miss the old pink nokia phone and i would like to use old sony ericson flip phone.

. dear phone .

i suddenly miss my old pink nokia phone and wish to use a flip phone..

. mannequin .

i'd like to have a half body mannequin inside my rooM!! but my room is too small for that? o.O

. doodling for you .

i am in the state of boredom these few days! how i wish i am working in a design firm today. here, little doodling from me to you.. hope you like it :)

. i want to know more about you .

yeah, i want to know more and more about typography. i have lack of knowledge in typo world.