. think happi thoughts please! .

blog, i don't know what got into me these few days.. seems like things gone wrong :( same as today. i was happi today because we had a christmas lunchie at office! yay! and we have christmas gift exchange. hihihi be someone else secret santa is exciting! i have no idea who i picked lol. he is a new layout guy in the company. it was tough finding him a present. but gladly he said he like it :D (or he got threatened by my note forcing him to like the gift that i pick? my bad :P) hummm i was so happy today. i got few extra presents. thank you!!! :)

today mom and dad arrived here!! i miss them :) but i came home late today... because i have my last minute shopping for christmas gift. see how scattered is my brain! how can i skipped my parents gift?? :( and i finally got one! a scented candle that i know mom and dad will definitely love it. it's from crabtree and evelyn. i wanted to buy jo malone. but i have not much time. i rushed back by cab.. but the taxi driver was so rude :( and i left my gift inside the cab. i chased him... i got the cab, i knocked on the window. he knew it.. but he ignored me :( how can a person be so cruel? :( i feel like crying my heart just broken. you see, i have no time to buy another for them. am flying off tomorrow to see my girl friends. now i have mix emotion :(. hummm... may be, i can asked my friend to help me bring it to my parents in january since they are going back :) so problem kinda solved.. but still... it's christmas and i want to see their happy smile :( and a kiss from my dad after he received the gift. coz that's what he did everytime when he received a gift from us.

i feel nice and good after awhile.. and my dad asked if i am okay. and i said i am not.. i feel stressed out with the wedding video. i have a very tight deadline. i am sure my dad won't understand but it's alright. he is so cute enough to quickly said don't be stress! i saw a video clip so nice from a mv.. and i snapped them and wanted to show you. hahaha. and he take his iphone and showed me. then he went to youtube and find the song for me hahaha. love you dad!

. happi christmas everyone .

the worst moment when you are unwell and you have tons of stuff twirling in your head, deadline and all... you have no idea what to do, being a cry baby and you have noone to talk to. worst time ever.

. ed ed ed .

love love this song! addicted to it now. how can a song so sweet? thanks, hendra!! now i addicted to this song -.-



and rupert wearing the lighting bold swatch!! cute!

blog, i think i kinda miss talking to someone who used to be close to me. but somehow we just not talked to each other anymore. weird and scary.. people really come and go...

. love is .

if people in this earth really do this :) what a wonderful world :D

. wandering around .

christmas is just around the corner and why do i feel so lonely when i am not even alone. mister rain is still here visiting singapore. seems like he loves me so much that he keeps on dropping the rains on my head. now i feel a little bit head ache. i should remain healthy for this few weeks until next year. i am going to visit my girls soon. boy, i miss them so so so so much. finally i finished the christmas gift shopping. tiring! i never felt this tired before. christmas shopping should be fun. but somehow i just didn't feel that way. i think because of the tiredness and head ache.

what have gotten into me again? i wonder. sigh. there is something inside my head that i couldn't say it outloud. i am sad whenever i think about that. what to do? i am a girl with expectation. you can't change me nor i can change myself. and aslo i can't deny but still feel sad over the christmas dinner that never happened. oh boy, here i go again all feel emotional. sigh!

. cuteness .

overwhelmed by Daddy J kindness. I hardly can sleep eventho i feel swleeepy!!! smile and smiling is what i can do right now. trying to call the sheep to let him know the happi news! feel happi! just happi Daddy J is the best of all :) eventho i am not a good girl this year. He is the greatest! :D

and look what i found! cute song ever!

. happilove .

thanks God for the wonderful news :) and happisis studio is going to work on new project! and it might be two projects this time for two different years :) wedding bells are going to ring and make a lovely sounds. excited!

lots of my friends are getting married.. this year, next year and the year after next year. which i feel happy for them! :D to see the happy faces and the sparkling ring that shine from their engagement rings or wedding rings. wonder when could be my turn :p i am sure Daddy J prepared one for me. and he has to love me more than i love him. because i am selfish :D

. better me and better you .

Truth is we dont know much
I dont know you
And you dont know me
We get so judgmental from the start
Saying hes like this and that
Behind my back

It takes some time to get to know me
And I understand, but sometimes I cant
Lets spend some time and you will see
Im just like you, and youre just like me

Just take your time and listen
Love, peace, and joy is my mission

I wonder what the world would be like
If we all just got along
There would be more happy songs
Wed be dancing all day long
I wonder if you talked to me
Would you see a better man?
I sure hope thats what youd do
Cause I would see a better you

Sometimes I forget
There might be more
Maybe theyve been hurt
And I dont know
Being quick to judge is easy stuff
But to love
Sometimes its tough

Just take your time and listen
Make peace and love your mission

I wonder what the world would be like
If we all just got along
There would be more happy songs
Wed be dancing all day long
I wonder if you talked to me
Would you see a better man?
I sure hope thats what youd do
Cause I would see a better youbetter you

I wonder what the world would be like
If we all just got along
There would be more happy songs
Wed be dancing all day long
I wonder if you talked to me
Would you see a better man?
I sure hope thats what youd do
Cause I would see a better you

blog, i have something to say.. it's been bothering me. i feel sad... i noticed around us, lots of people talking or gossiping about others. i don't know why they even do that. well, i won't be all acting like angel and not admitting that i am one of them. i am disappointed on myself too. i try to stop it. i never really well, dislike a person before or judge them before i really know them. i admit i am not all friendly with one of the people that i know. it just because i thot that person doesn't like me to be around her. well, i try to be nice and be friend but she refused.. was worried about her but guess i am just not the type of friend that she would like to have. after awhile complaining about this situation with the sheep, now i stop complaining and just let it be may be we just not click that's all. we are two diff people. i would like to apologized regarding my ugly act :p. i do feel awful and if my parents know about it, they won't be happy too. i never been taught to be like that. but still, i don't understand why people love to bitch about others or just gossiping or just talk bad about others behind their back. i jsut feel sad about it. humph... if only those stuff not happening... i am sorry if i am not being a good girl this year.

. worn out .

today, i wore my gold ck flats again :) i feel happi. i love this flats very much that i never wanted to throw them away even tho they are worn out. but i still love them. i was looking around for the new pair but couldn't found one. this flats has been together with me for around 3 to 4 years if i wasn't get it wrong and still loving them! i feel like greek lady :p with this golden flats haha.

. sweetness .

if i ever get married i want to get married in this song :p a song so sweet that makes me want to cry. if a guy with emerald cut, one knee down plus this song, i'll say yes! awww!!!

. randome .

what to do with me, blog? i have no idea what i really wants in life! well, alright.. i know what i want but the thing is which one is what i really want? as today, i feel like eating something sweet, but i am not into something too sweet. so, i went to the shop around the office to grabbed some choco of course, but they ran out of hershey's special dark choco. sad! but i found the new ferrero in dark choco! oh yeah! i quickly grabbed that and i still feel something missing... so i grabbed another dars choco dark one of course and think are they enough? oh, may be something cold to drink something refreshing so i grabbed another sunkist juice drink with a lil pulp inside. i love pulp. i paid and i saw m&m's so i grabbed another one! now i have 3 diff snacks with me all choco just diff brand and shapes. but, i don't feel like eating them. instead, i gave the ferrero to my colleagues. -.-" and i don't even finished the juice. too sweet. *slap me once and slap me twice!

how can i live simply if i don't even know what i want? o.O"

. pink .

the other day a friend sent me a link and i couldn't agree more this illus is so cute! trex ftw! :p so cute!

. paris - bombay .

. love .

. sinus .

hey, blog.. how are you? am not feeling all well... mentally and physically. sigh! sitting on my bed, covered with my blanket, books on the right, color pencils on the left, lappie and pen with sketch book infront. i am trying to sketch something out. with runny nose and teary eyes! all thanks to my sinus! sigh -.-" so, i thot this month will be better than other months. at least this month is the best. but still.. humm blog am tired of whatsoever stuff that happening around me. i feel like moving to other place. start a new life and all :P how i wish this life is a movie. i can just pack my stuff, book a one way plane ticket to somewhere far away from here. be someone new and have new life! but no, i have to back in ugly reality. this is not hollywood movie or even low budget movie. this is the real life! in the time like this, i really miss my girls. i have no idea what is friends means? i never had one and i thought i found one. but guess, i never will find one. but i do hope one day my nutcracker prince is my best and close friend forever. i am tired with unnecessary stuff. that's why i never want to be close to anybody else, besides my girls, heny and sandy. love them the most. i can survive only on my own. i've been strong enough to lived my life alone here and i'll carry on like that. well, of course i do love to have lots of friends but i'll have to be selective for who is the faithful friends that near to me and dear to me. but i got to admit, the gift from Daddy this whole year despite my ugly relationship and any other stuff, He brings me a friend who always there to listen to me. for me he is a gift eventho he does or doesn't feel the same way. but i treasure it. i can be bitchy sometimes but i love him as my dearest friend here. well, but whatever comes it will goes away. time for me to let myself be mature and stand up alone :)

. blocked .

have you ever experience mental block? i did these few months.. i get inspiration everywhere that i could possibly found one. but still i have no idea what to draw. well, okay i did draw some drawing but they are not what i want to express. ugh, i am not happy with my drawings lately. what should i do? christmas is so near but i haven't manage to draw any christmas greeting card yet. humph! please shower me with pretty stuff >.<

. bloated .

blog, me so frustrated! my skin isn't getting any better :( i shall drink more i think. sigh! and i just realized i am getting darker. that is the last thing that i wish for! humph! what to do!!!!! okay! i feel so full right now, just came back from heny and sandy's place. ate alot! i love their place hahaha always has food around :p heaven to me. hahahaha but it is so fatty and sinful :P i love both of them very much! :D i wish to have real brother and sister like both of them :p okay then! time to bathe and sleep... wait! but i can't i feel bloated! muach!

. love .

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms. " - iris, the holiday

"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade." - Iris, the holiday

so, i miss the holiday movie :) i've watched it for few times. just love it. and this christmas am watching it again :D with the enchanted music from hanz zimmer just set the feeling up. what a nice feeling :D

. cold sweet night .

Stockings are hung with care, as children sleep with one eye openWell now there's more than toys at stake cos I'm older now, but not done hoping

The twinkling of the lights, as scented candles fill the householdOld Saint Nick has taken flight with a heart on board, so please be careful

Each year I ask for many different things, but now I know what my heart wants you to bring

So please just fall in love with me, this ChristmasThere's nothing else that I will need, this ChristmasWon't be wrapped under a tree, I want something that lasts forever, so kiss me on this cold December night

A cheer that smells of pine, a house that's filled with joy and laughterThe mistletoe says stand in line, loneliness is what I captureOh that this evening can be a holy nightLet's cosy on up by the fireplace and dim those Christmas lights

So please just fall in love with me, this ChristmasThere's nothing else that you will need, this ChristmasWon't be wrapped under a tree, I want something that lasts forever, so kiss me on this cold December night

They call it the season of giving; I'm here, I'm yours for the takingThey call it the season of giving; I'm here, I'm yours

Just fall in love with me, this ChristmasThere's nothing else that we will need, this ChristmasWon't be wrapped under a tree, I want something that lasts forever, cos I don't wanna be alone tonight

I'll wear you like a Christmas sweater, walk you proudly to the mistletoe tonight

I want something that lasts forever, so kiss me on this cold December night

They call it the season of giving; I'm here, I'm yours for the takingThey call it the season of giving; I'm here, I'm yours

. aha aha .

hey ya blog! its beginning to look a lot like christmas eh? :D i am listening to michael buble christmas album and watched the music video. boy, he is so charming! :o and one of the music video similar to tiffany's christmas ad's which i lovee!!!! hahaha. sweet and charming! every girls dream! :D so.. blog, every christmas i am longing for a prince to spend this lovely time with me but it never happens. may be next year yeah? am sure Daddy J has arranged it for me :)

. i love this music video .

. didn't i tell you i made a new friend? she is eli. here she is! isn't she cute :D .

. and here is my sister, i just love her picture here! she is just soooo cute! .

. the sick guy! .

. happy feet .

hey, blog! how are ya'? am doing great and then not so good! sigh! i just fell down yesterday. more like flew and dropped! lols! my amazing eyes didn't see there were steps and i just fall! hurt my knees, duh! both knees and my elbow and my palm. ugh! why oh why i always so careless. talk about careless yeah! i lost my iphone on my last visit to universal studio. but the turkey legs and four fun companions made it better :D. so, v just took off to australia yesterday. yesh! we had so much fun. well, but sigh i couldn't bring him to eat lots of good foods! coz he wasn't feeling well. sad! but it was still fun hang out with this tall guy! lol. and i made new friend eli! she is so much a fun person! she as well went back to states today. we went to drinks and we had fun. but i was a lil bit doze off from the hoegarden! weird thing is i buzzed from a beer not the shot -.-" alrighty! i couldn't wait til she posted the pictures.

. wooo .

"I wanted to create a true Marni wardrobe by revisiting all our favourite pieces in signature fabrics and prints," Castiglioni said. "As always, I love juxtaposing prints and colours, mixing modern tribal with Bauhaus graphic and adding sporty utilitarian elements."

. source .

marni for h&m! spring 2012! prints prints colors colors! can't wait!! but... please wallet be nice -.-" excited enough? aaahH!!!!

and congrats to sarah burtons!!! winner of british fashion awards! designer of the year yo!!! woohoooo!!! :D

. hum hum a little hum .

blog! let me start the day! i feel good today :) things seems to be clearer and i feel lighter each day. hahaha! ah! may be that's because christmas is one block away!! hurray! or may be before sleeping, i watched winnie the pooh the movie! oooh! who doesn't love this silly old bear and friends? with the strong imagination of christopher robin. i love! pooh movies always make me happi! and zoey deschanel sing the song yo!!! i just talked to the sheep yesterday i think i can be related to pooh bear. we both loves to eat, not so intelligent, but we love our friends and we always think about our tummy. :D

and have i told you i love my breakfast today! hahaha don't you feel like christmas already just to look at the packaging? i do! :D

. someday .

smitten with this picture :) sometimes i just longing for someone who mature enough to understand me, to care about me without expecting me to do stuff. someday somehow somewhat he will come my only nutcracker prince. not so perfect prince. i am tired.

and when he comes he'll hold me tight in the arm and won't ever let me go. *yes, sisca you wish. *oh yeah! of couse i wish! :p

. dream .

humph! you know what i want now? i want to work on my own self! focus on the dream! the extra stuff, i'll wait later or for Daddy J to settle it for me. feel good going to church today with Heny and Sandy :) okay blog, i am tired and sleepy. i can't wait til 2012.

. the lady .

i got to watch this! ah love meryl streep! :)

. eye on you .

. cute karl lagerfeld shaped eye shadow for sephora! we want! .

. randome .

sometimes i do feel this way

. i know nothing i am a loser .

but then again

. i am not the biggest loser coz i KNOW nothing .

okay, i am just being random. i feel drowsy the meds are doing their job.

. wooot .

blog, how are you? hummm i got a mixed mixed situation now! happy and sad. happy coz i had great time with my friends in universal studio! :D and i got sad because i lost my iphone :( all the pictures! the memories had gone. humph can't believe it! and happy again coz i ate the turkey leg at universal studio. yum! i feel like i am in a flinstone world. haha the turkey leg is so big! i want more! and i feel happy too because i ate cookie! and i feel happy because we tried all the excited rides! hap happi! but then i feel sad because i had sore throat and i feel light headed and feverish. and i feel happy again coz the next day which is yesterday. we went for "richard the third" kevin spacey in it yo! :D great performance! i wish i wasn't unwell :( and it's kiat bday yesterday!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KIAT! and then now i feel tired but happy coz i knew there is people who care for me. :D thanks for the care not so tasty drink and med!

. hmm .

blog, somehow i feel mix emotion. i am not sure why. i think i feel touched by what my close friend did. i never believe that a love so strong will happened in a real life. well, at least not in my life. i always believe that happens only in the movie or disney fairytale. but no, blog. i had a friend who loves this girl for long time. they were together and now they are not anymore. i really wish he find his happiness. well, i was listening to this song, "the hardest thing" i feel that is so sweet a song. when i was listening to that song, it reminds me of him and the girl that he loves. so i texted him out of blue and question him. i was curious and i never believe that his love could be so strong. but no blog, whatever that song portray, it portray exactly the same thing as what my friend feel. i feel touched and i feel envy that i wish i experience that kind of love too. (nah! instead what i have is only rubbish). hummm there is still a guy who is so devoted only with a girl. who cares so much, who loves so much, who is willing to give everything to a girl (<< well this one is kinda stupid i think :p) eventho he get hurts everytime but he never give up. isn't that enough to show that he really loves her? humph.. i finally kinda believe that real love do exist.

A still frames photograph of you,and me together.

is all i have of you and me anymore .. !

We were so in love and we thought it'll last forever.

But we were torn..by the storm.

And I won't forget you!I can't forget you!And the hardest thing i've done is have to live without you!

And i wonder why we both walked away (we walked away)

I'm lost without you,still crazy for you

Just turn around,come back because your smile is overdue

And I miss You (I miss you)

If I'd only knew the words to say that would make you turn around (turn around)

I'd say the words to you more than a million times.

It's been forever,but that hasn't changed what you mean to me.

Darling can'tyou see? (can't you see?)

That i won't forget you! I can't forget you!And the hardest thing I've done is have to live without you!

And I wonder why we both walked away ( we walked away)

I'm lost without you,still crazy for you,

Just turn around,come back because your smile is overdue.

And i miss You! (I miss you)

Im sorry for all i did,what i said and things i hid and I'm finally over me..

Is that too late you you?

I can't imagine where I'd be

If you had never rescued me

You showed me what it is,and now i so can see

And I won't forget you!I can't forget you!And the hardest thing i've done is have to live without you!

And I'm lost without you,still crazy for you

Just turn around,come back because your smile is overdue

And I won't forget you!I can't forget you!And the hardest thing i've done is have to live without you!And i wonder why we both walked away

'Cause I'm lost without you,still crazy for you.

Just turn around,come back because your smile is overdue.

And I miss You.

blog! i am so so so sleepy! but it's worth the catchup the ketchup! so v was here this early morning! yeah midnight -.-" transit to indo. we talked and bucks! ended up went back ard 4am. hahaha! blame me but i had fun! he is coming back here again later on and stay here for few days. ah! we've already know what we shall eat! yay! be ready to gain weight, me! :)

. stole my ice cream .

no blog, i didn't have any but my little dino here has a little nightmare. he told me someone stole his ice cream away. anw, i am stealing a 5 mins time to post this and uploaded this up on happisis studio :p. i am tired! lots of work but still doing good :D aye aye!

oh migosh! i got distracted by this song. so sweet!!! i want to feel love like this! please!

. na na na na .

awww! isn't this song cute? hahaha i wish i am still young lols. i mean under 20 ahha. and yes! i am back!!! the happisis is back! i've been thinking. just because some people dislike me, doesn't mean the world will end and besides, i have great friends surround me :D. i can't just waste my precious time! and my friends keep on asking me yesterday and today. what's wrong with me! frankly speaking, me don't know... but i promise i won't waste my time and i don't want to be called miss emo! bleah!

. gotten .

this song reminds me of...

. nobody .

sigh~ i don't know i hate myself now!

. my own paradise .

i can somehow related myself to this lyrics... i feel good when i listen to this song and let me tell you blog, i get inspired from this song too. i just don't have the time now to do the imagination that still wandering around my mind. i want to illustrate them soon.
When she was just a girlShe expected the worldBut it flew away from her reach soShe ran away in her sleepand dreamed ofPara-para-paradiseEvery time she closed her eyes
When she was just a girlShe expected the worldBut it flew away from her reachand the bullets catch in her teethLife goes on, it gets so heavyThe wheel breaks the butterflyEvery tear a waterfallIn the night the stormy night she'll close her eyesIn the night the stormy night away she'd fly
And so lying underneath those stormy skiesShe'd say, "oh, I know the sun must set to rise"
* for the second time in this year two people told me to just leave them alone.. guess, i must be that bad. :(

blog, these days are not happy days :( i feel upset. people dislike me.. i don't understand why and what i did wrong :( if i could.. i would leave this place as soon as i can. i am tired here. tired with all nonsense, all unnecessary stuff. may be i am too carefree.. i am too friendly with peoples. that's why they hate me. i don't know but i feel sad. this year isn't my year that's all. i hope those who hates me.. they will think twice.. before they really hate hate me. if i could i would vanish from this place. sigh... i just wanted a simple normal unstressful life. why can't i have that? i just want to achieve my dream.. what i wanted. why people always being so mean? i don't understand. i am not happy at all. i wish this go away fast.. :(

. fall .

this song is beautiful... it makes me cry...

my heart ache everytime i know there is someone care for me when i know all i can do is nothing

. happistudio .

hey blog, so i decided to doing some "activity" for my happisis studio fb page. please do dropped by and show some love :p. decided to show my sketches everyday! with lil message. humph... i hope people or whoever supported the happisis studio page feel happier with our drawing :D

. wink .

When you touch my hand, the racing world stands And everything’s still

And I can’t hold my breath, but forget to breathe when looking at you

aaah! been busy with works and i'm lovin' it :D at last the busy moment has come. have a happy day yo! hugs and kisses!

. long weekend .

. my first ever stamp crafting! .

. this reminds me of thumbelina .

hey, blog! how are you! hummm i am quite restless over the long weekend :) but i am quite enjoying myself. strolling around doing nothing til am :p. guess, i love doing that. btw blog, i am being a loser again. i have no guts to watch paranormal activity -.-" i sat in for the whole movie without watching the movie T_T. ahh!!! but yesterday or saturday or even friday night were all awesome :) oh yeah! we walking, taking mrt aimlessly and ended at haw par villa yesterday. reminds me of my childhood. when papa and mama brought me there. but they do change lots of stuff. well, i couldn't quite remember. what i remember is there was a boat bringing us inside a cave to view all the statues and i got scared. well, up until now when i visited there i got uneasy feeling. btw, i've watched tintin. love the show so very much!!

. shake it yo .

shake shake shake! i love this song

. system down .

have you ever face up and down situation? hummm... much learn from this life. i am now kinda facing a down situation. next year, i wish next year all going to be better. i texted koko sandy. i said no matter what he has to push me and i need to gain something in next year. i mean, i feel grateful for what i have right now. but we are human not meant to be only in their comfort zone. i want to strive better in everything. i feel blessed i have lovely friends around, lovely coworkes and also someone who cares for me. i feel grateful. but still this is not enough. God created placed me in this world not for being so so sisca! but the awesome one. i am so fed up lately with myself. and i am sometimes disappointed and i am just feeling so emotional these days. i wish this is gonna over soon. please please november please be good to me. *i can feel i am talking nonsense and craps but who cares. noone will read this junk anyway.

. bleah! .

. and i still can't forgive you! she shouldn't either .

. love is .

a friend of mine sent me this link i love it! it supposed to be my inspiration.