. dorothy .

aaah! am so in love with miu miu gold glittery pumps and i envy cc heny for having the black one. aaah~ when i saw it from miu miu's window display with julia. it reminds me of the red glitter shoes that dorothy from wizard of oz wears. one of my fave movie.

. random .

how i wish i am going to a jazz performance. i am in need of that!! or classical music with tchaikovsky or chopin music playing. i wish i am out of singapore for awhile ahhaha.

. bla bla bla bla bla .

my zits making a come back!!!!! *danger danger danger! i hate it! humph.... lack of sleep these days working on friend's wedding illustration. this will be the first and the last. thanks to scooby doo! to help me out with the lil effects. thanks to encourage me throughout this. unlike someone else who lose faith in me before i tried. *sucks yo. receiving help from other is not that nice for i feel uneasy, i am not very easy to pleased. i've been trying to work on my own every now and then. i came to singapore with noone but my luggage. i went to raffles design institute with noone but my notebook, pen and pencil. i am proud of the fact that i still can survive! how dare people said i am too dependent. how dare people said i am spoilt kid and i can't survive on my own. *angry. yes, how dare! i work my ass off to gain what i have today. eventho it is small but i am proud of myself. i look childish behave like a kid and all. but i am independent. it is my personality alright? what is wrong with that? sigh~

am sorry blog, i got carried away *calm down calm down. okay, so yeah! i am tired, lack of sleep, lots of pressure, lots of responsibility, lots of stress. i need some air. these few months being insane. but i actually feel happy about it. okay, i complain but mostly because of the existence of my pimples! this scars and pimples ruin my skin. i hate hate hate! i miss my smooth clean skin on my face :( *friend said, laser but laser, i need whole lots of blinks! sigh!!! what will our ancient do when they have this problem? without going thru the laser process? please drop me a recipe from the sky! i need it. hoaaaaaah! it would be great if even you work late, not enough sleep and all but you still get to maintain the healthy skin. humph!

. when you get a hit on the spot .

i am listening to lady antebellum - when you got a good thing. it means nothing to me right now. but it makes me finally realized, realized why i think love sucks. nah, it is nobody's fault. only because i gave all my heart, hope and dream to one guy, whom in the end betrayed me. say, i am a fool i put too much dreams and hope in one guy that i barely know and understand him as he me. but i dont think i am a fool. at least i am sincere, innocent enough to trust love, big hearted enough to gave him chances. isnt that the most beautiful thing? yes, it is and it is indeed hurt when u get betrayed by that big trust. u feel like this earth is going to collapse right in that moment and u cant possibly find happiness again. i was wrong. i can still find it one day, someday. not thru a guy maybe, but thru something else. now i kinda understand why i dont feel love and romance, not tiny lil bit. but still my heart hurt. the innocence and sincerity betray me. the trust hurt me big. still, i hope he is happy with what he have done. he feel satisfied with what he said. he feel succeed with what he achieved.

*am struggling with sweet romantic scene for friend's wedding illustration! what should i do yeah? -.-" sucks!

. smack .

i never love to use lipstick or lip gloss or lip balm. okay, i love nothing on my lip! but i love to buy them be it because of the packaging or the prints or the cute smell. i saw paul frank lip smacker from watson. so cute that i cant resist not to buy! i ended up buying it. haha. they have the one in a round small tin too. shall i get that too? ;p yeap, i love tin!

. waddup .

aaah! i am happy today! helping out taking notes for the animators ;D learning stuff. thanked my boss dave! ;D. i can't wait til the day i finished heny and sandy's wedding video! and i shall focus on my own stuff.... and need to save up money to buy that adidas base ball jersey. *in love with it! i look cool in that ;p and i need to slowly collect copic markers... and learn how to use them. i've been wanting a moleskine. hummm but moleskine is expensive for me. for someone who can't really illustrate well! i want to get that haha may be it will help me became a better artist! *don't mind me this is just my own thought! i want to stick lots of reference inside my moleskine... hmmm what color should it be? red? green? yellow? black? if only they have white! or grey! ;D i almost finished my muji sketch book... shall i buy? haha! oh, well! and that 82 dollars yohji yamamoto book that i've been eyeing!

i just published some of my work on behance.net. ehhehe raymond, my friend encourage me to post them up. geeez! how can i compare my work with those artists. i never want to post my work there. hahaha i created the account just to get inspired by lots of awesome work from there. here eventho noone cares. ;p happisis

oh yeah blog, i am going to start collecting lots of cute and strange stuff. i need to get inspired and study more! :D

random! *the thing i hate the most is うそつき! だい きらい!!!! humph