. telepathy .

blog, you know... i love my dad. sometimes i feel like i have two mommy. my dad always took care of us like a mom. but still he is a dad. somehow i have feeling he always know what's going on in my heart and mind. even without talking and we are miles away, whenever i felt sad and down, he suddenly called me just to said "are u okay?" i was surprised for few times. but that makes me feel safe and make me realized everything is going to be alright because i still have my awesome dad. i dont feel like being here in indonesia for too long. he will definietly realized that i have changed. it is hard for me to covered myself with a mask. indeed he caught me today when i am absolutely healthy and doing nothing, he suddenly asked me if everything is okay and nothing bad happened. that was too scary. i wish to spent my night together with my mom and dad in their room, watching dvds together and sleep with them but i couldnt do that. he'll know that i am not okay. it is hurt for me to be like this. i rather be i singapore than make them worry. he is my handsome, strong dad but now that i see him, i shed a tear he still try so hard to be as strong as he always be. but indeed he grow old. my heart aching.

. fight .

. what is this? .

my mind scream *stooop! but my hand do the type. i type i posted and i deleted and i rewrite and i deleted again and now i am typing. because i don't want to look pathetic.

lols, i don't know what i am writing, blog... but just let me write. i have noone to share. people are going to laugh at me but not you. i wonder why i keep on thinking about this? isn't it over? huff.... indeed i still in love. humph.. for someone who treat love as something so special and worth a life. why i hate to being in love now? hufff sacre bleu!

. brainie .

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. today i love .

Chronographe Ascète - Chrono AC 2001- Strategy, EEM, Emmanuel Bossuet et Marie Laure Bellanger, duo de directeurs artistiques. .source.

. emmanuel bossuet .

. i'm coming home .

wohooo blog! i am back in my hometown. ugh! it's been year and over since i came back home. kids running with barefoot, the traffic jam, the not so clean places, the side road foods, hahaha. honestly i feel lonely without my sist here. only left my mom dad and me at home. hohoho. listening to my dad's guitar, my mom "singing" bleee just miss them all. i reached here yesterday morning, my dad brought me to view his dream house it still under construction. he shows me our little house and little room that still in process. it is still raw and dusty. then, my lovely make up artist friend nata brought me for lunch at tip top. it's an old place to eat. honestly, i went there when i was very little. i couldn't even remember what they serve. ugh! i didn't snap any picture of the food. but the menu and the uniform that they wore, so cute! just look like a porter. haha i love the uniform. so classy. if you allow me blog, i would like to share the place where i grow up.

. my lil via's salmon pasta before the flight, accompanied by ian wright on tlc .

. lil wood board crayoning at changi .

. woohooo .

. yahooo touch down .

. here i am .

. le airport .

. my dad in white the artist in black.

. this is going to be my little room .

. here is my mom and dad room .

. this is going to be the dining room and living room.

. dusty little house.

. menu so colorful, fun and old.

. tip top the porter uniform so cute .

. yeah! my fave snack stuffed tofu .

. my first sculpture my dad treasure it alot haha (sorry it looks weird) .

. musical nutcracker on top of the piano .

. our bedroom shared by 3 of us (i have 2 lovely younger sisters) .

. le toilet .

. mickey and minnie since i was a little .

. funny looking person on funny pajamas.

ps, i digged out my dad's old watches! ahhaha i asked for two of them. but he only gave me one. that's ok one is enough. hahaha my dad said i am greedy! ;p i also digged out my mom's clothes. love one vintage dress! sad sad my hip is too wide -.-" it stuck. lols!"