. boo .

. sketching mara t shell .

whoa whoa whoa! okay, last few days i feel a bit.. okay more bit... okay no.. really mix emotion! bleh! no good no good. guess, that's because of me papa and mama keep on calling me and not their fault but to scold me and give me some kind of pressure. ah well, some people just can't mind their own business and poke their nose on others. or just be as evil as some people is and not feeling happi when others are. hmmm what to do... people from my country... from my hometown to be exact are mostly like that. booo! not cool!

but then again, me papa and mama are as sweet as always after they are feeling better. papa called just to say, "hi, daddy's sweetheart how are you?" tehehehe and what can i say more? :p of course i scolded him back! okay not scold scold :p and now after siggraph finished, my freelance done and i can finally not going back to the office on every saturday. i feel more relax now! in fact! i feel inspired again!

whoaaa!!! i am going to take silk screen workshop! excited excited :) can't wait can't wait.

and i can't wait to purchased my baby!!!! :D

. the good and the bad .

. don't like it .

hi blog! been a long time! i feel like blogging or should i say i feel like writing something dumb again. i feel so tired recently... all the blessing and also challenging stuffs going on. i feel unhappi but i think i got to be strong... oh well, just came back from a geekout party held by my previous school. nice to see old familiar faces and some of the face that i might not be able to see again :( but indeed i miss all of them so. they are my friends from school and also friends from work. i feel sad... for the fact that i might not be able to see them anymore in the future. but i do hope that won't be happening. Daddy J will decide. but i hope everyone around our table were enjoying the time! trying hard to make myself look lil stupid :p but as long as my friends are happi what can i say more? :) but partly also because i dont want to think about anything unhappi just for that few good hours. oh yeah! i made few new friends today :) that's a blessing. and i actually get a name card from a digital artist. i am going to check out his stuff and email right away after that :) anw, i hope everything turns well in the end. i dont know what i can do is pray. geez, i have that mixed emotion again...

and indeed i think i am not yet healed from whatever that happened to me last year...

i think i need frank sinatra...

. major wishlist .

i have few wishlist that i needed to fulfill! 

don't mind the minor one here are what i really want! but if i can find a good watch with reasonable

number why not :p (you see, i can't get a too expensive watch or stuff. i am no good in take caring

stuff... sigh!)

thanks papa i got me wish full filled :)

:) there goes my wish list :) 

. when the magic comes .

what can i say? magical magical magical!

. prayers .

"Be merciful to me, my God, for my enemies are in hot pursuit;all day long they press their attack. My adversaries pursue me all day long; in their pride many are attacking me. When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid. What can mere mortals do to me? All day long they twist my words; all their schemes are for my ruin. They conspire, they lurk, they watch my steps, hoping to take my life. Because of their wickedness do not let them escape; in your anger, God, bring the nations down. Record my misery; list my tears on your scroll are they not in your record? Then my enemies will turn back when I call for help. By this I will know that God is for me. In God, whose word I praise, in the Lord, whose word I praise— in God I trust and am not afraid What can man do to me? I am under vows to you, my God; I will present my thank offerings to you. For you have delivered me from death and my feet from stumbling,that I may walk before God in the light of life." -Psalm 56

. grow .

have you ever find strong and right reason to live in other country and if it is possible you wanted to just stay there for-ever? i found mine, finally. i should have stop being naive but to admit the fact. humans are nightmare. people from my hometown included.  i thank Daddy J to give my parents a chance to let us grow here in singapore. i promise to work and try harder to survive here no matter how hard it is. Noone greater than Daddy J.