. blocked .

have you ever experience mental block? i did these few months.. i get inspiration everywhere that i could possibly found one. but still i have no idea what to draw. well, okay i did draw some drawing but they are not what i want to express. ugh, i am not happy with my drawings lately. what should i do? christmas is so near but i haven't manage to draw any christmas greeting card yet. humph! please shower me with pretty stuff >.<

. bloated .

blog, me so frustrated! my skin isn't getting any better :( i shall drink more i think. sigh! and i just realized i am getting darker. that is the last thing that i wish for! humph! what to do!!!!! okay! i feel so full right now, just came back from heny and sandy's place. ate alot! i love their place hahaha always has food around :p heaven to me. hahahaha but it is so fatty and sinful :P i love both of them very much! :D i wish to have real brother and sister like both of them :p okay then! time to bathe and sleep... wait! but i can't i feel bloated! muach!

. love .

"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms. " - iris, the holiday

"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade." - Iris, the holiday

so, i miss the holiday movie :) i've watched it for few times. just love it. and this christmas am watching it again :D with the enchanted music from hanz zimmer just set the feeling up. what a nice feeling :D

. cold sweet night .

Stockings are hung with care, as children sleep with one eye openWell now there's more than toys at stake cos I'm older now, but not done hoping

The twinkling of the lights, as scented candles fill the householdOld Saint Nick has taken flight with a heart on board, so please be careful

Each year I ask for many different things, but now I know what my heart wants you to bring

So please just fall in love with me, this ChristmasThere's nothing else that I will need, this ChristmasWon't be wrapped under a tree, I want something that lasts forever, so kiss me on this cold December night

A cheer that smells of pine, a house that's filled with joy and laughterThe mistletoe says stand in line, loneliness is what I captureOh that this evening can be a holy nightLet's cosy on up by the fireplace and dim those Christmas lights

So please just fall in love with me, this ChristmasThere's nothing else that you will need, this ChristmasWon't be wrapped under a tree, I want something that lasts forever, so kiss me on this cold December night

They call it the season of giving; I'm here, I'm yours for the takingThey call it the season of giving; I'm here, I'm yours

Just fall in love with me, this ChristmasThere's nothing else that we will need, this ChristmasWon't be wrapped under a tree, I want something that lasts forever, cos I don't wanna be alone tonight

I'll wear you like a Christmas sweater, walk you proudly to the mistletoe tonight

I want something that lasts forever, so kiss me on this cold December night

They call it the season of giving; I'm here, I'm yours for the takingThey call it the season of giving; I'm here, I'm yours

. aha aha .

hey ya blog! its beginning to look a lot like christmas eh? :D i am listening to michael buble christmas album and watched the music video. boy, he is so charming! :o and one of the music video similar to tiffany's christmas ad's which i lovee!!!! hahaha. sweet and charming! every girls dream! :D so.. blog, every christmas i am longing for a prince to spend this lovely time with me but it never happens. may be next year yeah? am sure Daddy J has arranged it for me :)

. i love this music video .

. didn't i tell you i made a new friend? she is eli. here she is! isn't she cute :D .

. and here is my sister, i just love her picture here! she is just soooo cute! .

. the sick guy! .

. happy feet .

hey, blog! how are ya'? am doing great and then not so good! sigh! i just fell down yesterday. more like flew and dropped! lols! my amazing eyes didn't see there were steps and i just fall! hurt my knees, duh! both knees and my elbow and my palm. ugh! why oh why i always so careless. talk about careless yeah! i lost my iphone on my last visit to universal studio. but the turkey legs and four fun companions made it better :D. so, v just took off to australia yesterday. yesh! we had so much fun. well, but sigh i couldn't bring him to eat lots of good foods! coz he wasn't feeling well. sad! but it was still fun hang out with this tall guy! lol. and i made new friend eli! she is so much a fun person! she as well went back to states today. we went to drinks and we had fun. but i was a lil bit doze off from the hoegarden! weird thing is i buzzed from a beer not the shot -.-" alrighty! i couldn't wait til she posted the pictures.